shades of blue

converted... (insert high-pitched scream)

2009-08-29T21:39:00.000-07:00

this time yesterday.. naglalakbay na kami papunta sa venue... last time nakita ko ang sarili ko sa salamin, ang nasabi ko nalang ay "nawa". di pa rin ako makapaniwalang nagkacelebration ako.
"blurple" ang motif ng thingy... so ayun. surprisingly, di ako nagobject sa isusuot ko. siguro dahil "if you must submit yourself to torture, there is no lesser evil." or baka dahil hindi na rin ako masyadong apprehensive sa mga ganun. pero di ko lang siya natiis, naenjoy ko siya.

pagdating sa venue, aba, may dalawang guys na na andun. gulat naman daw ako. nang makita ako ng family friend namin na magreretouch sakin throughout the event, di niya daw type yung makeup ko, so off we went to the other side of the venue.. pagtingin ko uli sa salamin, gard, hindi na ako yun! kung hindi na ako yung before nun, mas lalong hindi ako yung pangalawa! binalikan ko sila.. dahil may dumating nang additional, pinapasok na sila.. kaso, habang may dumarating, tong mga friends ko, naging parang welcome committee, ayaw umupo! hahaii.. pagkarating ng mga "dansahs".. sa wakas, umupo na rin sila..

nang marami-rami na ang mga tao.. mejo "pinatago" uli ako. change costume. yung katakot na gown na. this is it. wala nang atrasan ito. umpisa na ng "torture". pumasok na kami.. wow. iba ang feeling ng di makatingin sa mga tao. haha, joke!

infairness, ambilis ng mga pangyayari. nagdasal, nagpicture taking, kumain(?). tas ang sabi, "ok, 5 mins sayaw na".. parang, wow naman.. penge naman po ng time para makakain ng matino.. unfortunately, wala na talaga. so labas muna. buti nalang talaga adik mga dansahs at mejo di ko naramdaman ang kaba. so yun, pumasok na kami. di pa rin ako makatingin sa mga tao, much less sa mga kasama ko. tas ayun, natapos namin. surprising, considering 3 times lang kami nagpraktis.XD

after nun, video presentation.. grabe, ngayon alam na nila mga pinaggagawa ko nung maliit pa ako.XD

nagpa"how well do you know..?" game ang cousins ko.. first two questions muna: favorite color, at fave hs subject"... multiple choice naman.. abcd. kagulat gulat, naubos yung choices sa parehong questions.. walang nakakuha.XD sabagay..

then, yung mejo pinakakinatatakutang part.. sinundo na ako ni papa sa stage.. tas ayun, sumayaw.. as in side to side lang.. haha... tas hala, roses na. homaygard.. isa-isa, nakasayaw ko sila... mostly, tumatawa lang kami at kung anu-ano ang pinag-uusapan. yung iba, talagang nang-asar lang.. grrr. joke! somewhere in between, kinilig ako. akala ko wala na, meron pa pala. jusmiyo. siyempre di naman pwedeng di ko sila tignan habang sumasayaw kami. mejo matagal ko na rin siyang di nakikita. pero ayun, natapos din yun.

treasures naman.XD naku, haha.. joke time ito.. halos sa mga nandito, classmates ng parents ko sa ME.. so ayun.. cool naman ang mga payo na binigay nila sakin.. nakakakunsensya. charos.XD

tas candles. halos family members naman ito. grabeng nakakatouch, kasi yung mga relatives namin from my dad's side, pumunta pa from cebu for the event, tapos bongga ang mga message ng lahat. dito rin napaiyak si mama. grabe, nakunsensya ako. seryoso na tong pagkakunsensya na toh..

grabe, napaisip ako, ano pa bang meron? wow.. malapit na ata matapos! nagrerejoice na ako sa ulo ko.XD

nagpa-game na naman ang cousins ko. last 3 questions.. fave song artist, fave song, fave movie. waw, mejo nakuha lahat. haha.. katuwa.. giveaway.XD kaya lang yung last question brother ko ang sumagot.. madaya. joke!

blowing of candles, cake cutting, toast.. mabilis lang lahat yun... tas nagpathank you ako. di ko na maalala sinabi ko, basta alam ko di ko pinaghandaan.XD dapat kakanta ako, kaso di ko alam ang dapat kantahin sa mga ganun, so hindi nalang ako kumanta.

after nun, party na! kaso kinailangan ko munang magpalit due to unexpected circumstances. so pagbalik ko, wala na yung iba. yung iba naman, nagpictorial.XD gusto ko sana sumali pero di nila ako niyaya. ouch diba. joke. napansin ko kasi yung mom ng former classmate ko sa labas na ang alam ko di makakapunta. chem midterms. so pinuntahan ko muna. nasa loob daw si classmate.. pagbalik ko, wow andun nga! (malamang diba.XD) grabe, di ko expect. tas yung iba naman, nagppeanut wars. hayy naku. hayy naku lang.XD

then, nagpaalam na ako sa kanila. may nag-abot ng rose. totoo na rose. mejo natawa ako sa isip ko kasi fake yung ginamit sa 18 roses at kasali rin siya dun. gulat ako siyempre, pero keri lang. o diba, bongga siya, siyang unang nagbigay sa akin. haha! sad to say, napagtripan ni family friend yung rosas at nilasog-lasog.. wala akong part nung rosas. sayang.

so nagparty mode muna kaming mga natira.. then nagpabukas ng ilang presents.. mejo, ahm, may bag na ako for every remaining day of the semester.. hahaha!

tas uwian na. ayun, natulog kami sa villa. natapos din. di ko inakala na ganun. di ko inakalang masasabi ko na masaya ako. di ko inakala na kakayanin kong magtransform ng ganun katagal. haha!

sana nga lang nakapunta lahat, pero keri lang.. di naman yun ang importante. ang importante nakasama at kasama ko pa rin lahat sa mga susunod na taon.

from chemical engineering... to geology?

2009-02-09T23:37:00.000-08:00

note: lightbulb moment ito.

taking up natural science to under dr. carlos primo david made me realize how much i liked earth sciences. i mean, i definitely enjoyed them back in high school... but this course renewed my enthusiasm for cells, fossils, rocks, faults, etc. this course made me want to say, "i got stinky, i got dirty... but see, i learned!"

it got me thinking. considering the amount of effort (or lack of it) i put in my studies this year (my FIRST year), i screwed up. big time. i started asking myself if i really wanted this. it's a wonderful path, no doubt. i liked chemistry back in high school; however, chemical engineering was only a fallback. what i ::thought:: i wanted was molecular biology and biotechnology, which was waaaaayy out of my reach.

it's not that it was against my will; my parents gave me free reign over my course choice. still, i only got that because i thought it would have been easy to shift to mbb... but when i got here, boy oh boy was it hard.

is this really what i wanted? would shifting to something i got interested in via a GE course be worth it, or would i be better off staying? is geology, for lack of a better term, my dream course? i wonder.

final descent

2008-12-21T21:12:00.000-08:00

i anticipated it, but it still blew me away. it looked as if the night sky was underneath us. lights twinkling, small as pinpricks. as i looked out the window of the ATR plane and as we neared the runway, i recognized the roads i saw on the map. it was amazing how much clearer the routes could be seen at night. it was a highly uneventful flight; this, by far, was the best part.

at the same time, however, i was scared. not of the landing... we've been through that more than a couple of times. i wasn't scared of getting lost; not yet (i don't have to go just yet). i was scared of how close i was.

i have a week. just a week. well, now i only have six days. i must try to get there. i've done this once before; the only difference is, it's not the same person. i got to know them at the same time, but still i feel this is much more scarier. i know where i would find this person, yet i don't know if i have the guts to. i need a friend to come with me.. i hope i could convince her.

then again maybe i won't go.

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HAPPY HOLIDAYS.

-blue

hey! tired of being called a geek, or a know-it-all? be the LAST MIND STANDING!

2008-12-02T13:34:00.000-08:00

UP Aguman and UP Aguman Alumni Association
In celebration of its 35th Anniversary
present

Poinsettia Hall, WOW Hilaga (formerly Paskuhan Village)
8am, December 20, 2008
The Prizes for the brightest students of Pampanga:
CHAMPION: UP Aguman medal + P5,000
2nd Place: UP Aguman medal + P3,000
3rd Place: UP Aguman medal + P1,500
4th Place: UP Aguman medal + P500
4 Quarterfinalists: P300
Plus Certificates of Recognition and Participation to all Contestants

"Pautakan: The Last Mind Standing" is this year's special edition of the annual UP Aguman project, the Pautakan. For its 35th year, the UP Aguman Alumni Association partnered with the residents for this special anniversary project. The Pautakan has always been about celebrating the Kapampangan youth's academic excellence and thirst for knowledge. This edition won't be any different. While the original Pautakan is all about team effort, this time we're only looking for that extraordinary individual. Contestants will battle against each other and when the dust has settled, only one person with "the brightest mind" will be left standing.

QUALIFICATIONS:
*Any bona fide student of any year level from any high school (public or private) in Pampanga can join.
*There will NO REGISTRATION FEE.
*Contestants must present a valid high school ID as proof of eligibility.
*An official coach and/or recommendation from one's high school is NOT necessary.
*There is no requirement for attire.
*Participants and winners from the regular Pautakan held last October 25-27 at Don Bosco Academy Pampanga are are still eligible for the special edition of the Pautakan. After all, this individual competition is a whole new ballgame!
*Interested students are encouraged to pre-register to the following contact numbers:
FERGIE 09276565665
FERDINAND 09274321682
Email: up_aguman_tfk@yahoo.com
Regularly visit Aslag Online for any announcements.

CONTEST RULES AND REGULATIONS
*Participants must be bona fide high school students, and he shall represent himself only.
*A participant is required to be at the contest site fifteen (15) minutes before the contest proper. Should he be late for an Encounter or an Elimination Round, a leeway of fifteen (15) minutes will be given. If he still fails to arrive after the 15 minutes, he is automatically disqualified for that Encounter or Elimination Round. In an Encounter, the other participant will be declared the winner.
*The contest shall be composed of a Written Phase and an Oral Phase, the mechanics of which are as follows. The Written Phase will make use of answer sheets. No calculators, slide rules, and the like shall be allowed. The contestants are expected to bring their own pens and/or pencils. The Oral Phase utilizes a timer-buzzer device. The contestants shall be briefed on the mechanics of this before the contest proper starts.
*Questions will revolve around 8 subject categories: Mathematics, General Science, Biology, Chemistry, Physics, History and Current Events, Arts and Literature, and General Information and Trivia. Each question shall have its corresponding number of points and allotted time depending upon its degree of difficulty. *Complaints on a particular question shall be entertained by the Board of Judges only before the next question is asked. The complaint shall not be entertained thereafter. Only the participant may approach the Board of Judges to air the complaint.
*The complainants shall be the one to present their sources, if necessary. The UP Aguman will neither present nor divulge its sources as its questions and answers are valid. The decision of the Board of Judges is final and binding.
*Any form of coaching from the audience shall be penalized by nullifying the question.
*All rules and regulations shall be strictly followed and implemented.
*UP Aguman reserves the right to modify or alter the aforementioned rules as the need arises.

MECHANICS
Round 1: MASS ELIMINATIONS
In case more than 40 contestants register, a mass elimination round will ensue otherwise, the written eliminations will proceed. All contestants will answer a 65-item test that will equally cover all subject categories. The exam ill be a combination of problem solving, identification and multiple choice questions. The Top 25 scorers will proceed to Round 2 Eliminations. There will be no need for the tiebreakers as all contestants involved in any tie will qualify.

Round 2: WRITTEN ELIMINATIONS
All qualified contestants will compete in a 35-question Elimination Round. Round 1 scores will be discarded and al socres will be reset to zero. Questions will be divided into Easy, Average, and Difficult, with corresponding points of 10, 15, and 20, respectively. The quizmaster shall read each question twice and each contestant shall write their answer on the sheet provided for, within the allotted time, after which checking immediately follows. The Top 8 contestants will proceed to the Championship Encounters. In case of ties in the ranking, three (3) clincher questions will be asked to break the tie. If a tie still ensues, the knockout system will be applied.

THE CHAMPIONSHIP ENCOUNTERS
From this point onwards the Top 8 contestants will compete in one-on-one Encounters in a Single Elimination format. The Round 2 Elimination rankings will determine the pairings.
*Ten (10) questions will be asked in each Encounter. The length of the corresponding time limit for each question will depend on the question’s difficulty. A participant will be given only one (1) chance to answer. The first to buzz-in will be given five (5) seconds to declare their answer. During the 5-second allowance, the time limit countdown will be temporarily paused. If the first fails to answer correctly, countdown will resume and the other participant will be given the remaining duration of the time limit to buzz in and similarly, five (5) seconds to answer. No more steals will be allowed thereafter.
*A participant shall wait for his name to be acknowledged by the quizmasters after buzzing-in, before he gives an answer. If he fails to do so for the first time, it incurs its first warning. On the succeeding instances, however, he shall be disqualified from answering the question.
*The participant with the most number of points after ten (10) questions wins the Encounter and will move on to the next round. If a tie ensues, the knockout system will be employed. Knockout Questions will be asked and the first to answer correctly wins the encounter.
*The Final Encounter will have 16 questions instead of the usual 10 questions, and the one who will win the Finals will be declared the Last Mind Standing.

isa sa maraming... (stolen from dark)

2008-11-20T14:12:00.000-08:00

1. Sinong mas matangkad sainyo ng crush mo?
- ako pa..joke..per pwamis mas matangkad aco..xD

2. Ano ang kulay niya?
- fair

3. Sino mas matanda sa inyo?
- siya

4. Kailan mo siyang last nakita?
- basta matagal na

5. Kailan mo siyang last nakausap?
- see number 4

6. Close kayo?
- noon

7. Ano klase buhok niya? Ayos lang?
- ayos lang.. XD

8. Magaling sumayaw?
- malay

9. Magaling kumanta?
- pwede na

10. Saan siya magaling?
- mambola.. XD

11. Alam niya ba niya crush mo siya?
- ata

12. Kilala ka ba niya?
- naman

13. Alam niya name mo?
- ...ata. joke

14. Naka text mo na?
- once in a blue moon... literally

15. May karibal ka ba?
- yep

16. Gano katagal mo na siya crush?
- greater than [number 4]

17. Saan mo siya unang nakita?
- nakalimutan ko na

18. Pano kayo nagkakilala?
- nambola siya

19. Sasabihin mo ba sakanya na crush mo siya?
- hindi

20. Anong pangalan niya?
- che, sasagutan ko ba yan..

21. Narinig mo na ba boses niya?
- naman

22. Kilala ba siya ng friends mo?
- yung iba

23. Eh kilala mo ba mga friends niya?
- not so sure

24. Kilala ba niya friends mo?
- no

25. Eh kilala ka ba ng friends niya?
- if 23=yes then yes

my second sem, as i have made it to be

2008-11-10T20:25:00.000-08:00

my sched... another post coming up.

Announcement

2008-10-06T01:11:00.000-07:00

UNIVERSITY OF THE PHILIPPINES-DILIMAN

UP AGUMAN and PNB Life

in cooperation with

Joseph David ‘76A,
Daniel Manalo ‘77B, Susan Pugeda-David ‘76A

invite all Pampanga Schools to

THE PAUTAKAN 2008

Theme: Individual Excellence through Teamplay
October 23-25, 2008, Don Bosco Academy, Mabalacat, Pamp.

For details, contact: Jen 0915.331.5457, Ferdinand 0927.432.1682

PRE-ENLISTED SCHED

2008-09-30T04:48:00.000-07:00

TENTATIVE CRS SCHED FOR SECOND SEMESTER 08-09

si el hombre pudiera decir

2008-09-15T04:32:00.000-07:00

Si el hombre pudiera decir lo que ama,
Si el hombre pudiera levantar su amor por el cielo
Como una nube en la luz;
Si como muros que se derrumban,
Para saludar la verdad erguida en medio,
Pudiera derrumbar su cuerpo, dejando sólo la verdad de su amor,
La verdad de sí mismo,
Que no se llama gloria, fortuna o ambición,
Sino amor o deseo,
Yo sería aquel que imaginaba;
Aquel que con su lengua, sus ojos y sus manos
Proclama ante los hombres la verdad ignorada,
La verdad de su amor verdadero.

Libertad no conozco sino la libertad de estar preso en alguien
Cuyo nombre no puedo oír sin escalofrío;
Alguien por quien me olvido de esta existencia mezquina,
por quien el día y la noche son para mí lo que quiera,
Y mi cuerpo y espíritu flotan en su cuerpo y espíritu
Como leños perdidos que el mar anega o levanta
Libremente, con la libertad del amor,
La única libertad que me exalta,
La única libertad porque muero.

Tú justificas mi existencia:
Si no te conozco, no he vivido;
Si muero sin conocerte, no muero, porque no he vivido.

LUIS CERNUDA

kung ang buhay ay isang pelikula....

2008-09-04T22:45:00.000-07:00

IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE, WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?
So, here's how it works:
1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp,Media Player, iPod, etc)
2. Put it on shuffle
3. Press play
4. For every question, type the song that's playing
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button
6. Don't lie and try to pretend you're cool.

Opening Credits:
>Robbie Williams - A Man for All Seasons
>>zomg... theme song ng Johnny English... doi

Waking Up:
>Matchbox Twenty - Soul
>> ang drama... "you're so heavy, you're so misunderstood..."

First Day At School:
>George Michael - Amazing
>> ayon naman.. naks... i like it...

Falling In Love:
>Daughtry - Home
>> pwede na rin... ewan...

Fight Song:
>Nightwish - Amaranth
>> pwede na rin, rock naman eh...

Breaking Up:
>Maroon 5 - Can't Stop
>> "you never call, what do I do? i can't stop thinking about you.."
>>> wahaha, di makapag-let go...

Prom:
>Boys Like Girls - The Great Escape
>> naks... magandang combo rin ang kanta at theme.. ehe

Life:
>Nightwish - Gethsemane
>> err.. huh? (i like the song.. pero di ko maconnect sa theme..)

Mental Breakdown:
>Apo Hiking Society - When I Met You
>> =))

Driving:
>Coldplay - The Scientist
>> pwede, pero hanggang first line lang.. haha

Flashback:
>Itchyworms - Beer
>> andrama na naman!!! di kinaya ang pagflashback, at uminom nalang.. haha

Wedding:
>The Click Five - Mary Jane
>> lol, parang ex ng groom si mary jane.. =))

Birth of Child:
>Blake Lewis - Break Anotha
>> omg, babaero si guy!! "he'll break anotha heart, babe."

Final Battle:
>The Click Five - The Reason Why
>> love song... eep, ang weird..

Death Scene:
>Maroon 5 - She Will Be Loved
>> all i can say is, "AWW....."

Funeral Song:
>Matchbox Twenty - I'll Believe You When
>> omg, is the song insinuating that i'm not dead yet? =))

Credits:
>Boys Like Girls - Holiday
>>pwede na...

*will post these songs as a playlist...

names i've been called... (tagged by khae)

2008-08-04T01:08:00.000-07:00

Rule: List all the names you were called by and the people who call you that. Tag at least 10 members of your contacts and give a comment on their site for them to know they've been tagged.

1. diana - lahat ng nakakaalam na ito ang pangalan ko, my parents kapag galit , most of my teachers...

2. dianne (yes, ganito ang spelling nun.. ) - mga teachers at classmates nung high school, hanggang ngayon (lalo na classmates ko sa math)

3. diane - sa text, yung iba.

4. dafide - grade six classmates, fusion ng initials ng first name at first two syllables ng last name ko... dati kasi ang nakalagay sa side ng books ko, D A FIDELLAGA... aun

5. fidellagis - grade six classmates pa rin, minutilate nila last name ko..

6. dagis - branch out ng number 5, grade six classmates

7. mayor - grade six

8. fidellaga - ilang mga guro, at mga taga ibang school.

9. angeline - second name ko. una akong tinawag na ganito nung first year hs, roll call nung math kay ms. mariko pamintuan.

10. da - mga friends.. ehehe

11. tol, pare, bui - adier, dustin, anne, gara, luzzy, khae, rayson, atbp..

12. blue - honestly, sina khae at anne lang ang tumatawag sakin nito hanggang ngayon.. sorry, di ko na maalala kung sino pa eh... this is my gm identity, ie. lahat ng gm ko may "-blue" sa dulo

13. bluepotter - my online identity... online lang din ako tinatawag na ganito, xempre.. haha

14. di - first syllable ng name ko, si tita nenette, si james (classmate ko sa math)..

15. ate - family, mga undergrad...

16. casperbc - 1st year classmates.. ang casperbc ay isang code.

17. buddy - siyempre si buddy ko.. haha.. sa aking pag-aapply ngayon sa up aguman

18. nocturnal / vampire - si ms supi, at ang aking mga kaangkan..

19. dyunyor - si jomz...

20. gel - galing sa angeline, si kuya jowie (up aguman)..

next time na ako magtatag...

technology, friends, and life.

2008-07-04T12:25:00.000-07:00

* this post was taken from my myspace blog. i do not remember what inspired me to write this, nor do i remember that i have written such a thing. this is the lone post in the aforementioned blog. ciao.

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in today's "modern" times, it's common to have a lot of gadgets all over the place. a cellphone in hand, earphones plugged in an ipod, the other hand going crazy on a keyboard. ahh, the miracle of multitasking.

we often complain about bugs, viruses, little gizmo technological flaws... and we developed ways to fix them (virus scanners, firewalls, the occasional help from a technician).

amazing how simple these problems are solved. but having all these gadgets won't stop the world from turning. life goes on, and like these tech stuff, we encounter problems. sometimes, it's just not as simple as a screwdriver.

these wonders of technology shouldn't replace the friends and family that are supposed to be there to help us through. a video game won't help, not even the slightest bit. yes, they are good ways to get your mind of the problem, but simply ignoring it won't make it go away.

cherish the hand out to grab you when you're falling. you'll never know when the person who owns the hand tires of waiting to catch you and just walk away.

(what did i just say?)

-blue

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wish i could remember how i came up with this.

any reactions?

a different shade...

-blue

an attempt at an explanation

2008-07-04T12:16:00.000-07:00

maybe there is no explanation as to why my posts are pointless. they are the concrete manifestations of my qualification as a sub-blogger.

maybe a new post will be up right before midterms... i don't know, can't predict the future.

apologies for this crappy post.

p.s. the following post(s) are posts from other blogs (semi-pointless rants i had, that i was shocked to encounter).

p.s.s. this is crappy because i feel crappy. regular sleep times have once again shifted to the 3-5 am period, which is why i'm always late for my english 12 *world lit* and chem 16 *gen chem* classes, and why i look drugged.

a different, albeit crappy, shade...

-blue

WHAT MAJOR IS "RIGHT" FOR ME? WEB QUIZ FOR KICKS

2008-06-20T09:57:00.000-07:00

i must have been wondering whether i took the right course or not, because this quiz caught my attention. i read about it in an entry by a fellow eng'g student... and i've had my doubts as well... but i'm willing to stick to my course til the end. it's a challenge i've resigned myself to.

i took the test for laughs... just to see an organized list of interests and majors that may be "right" for me...

this is what i got..

btw: you may take this quiz by clicking the link provided right there....

WHAT MAJOR IS RIGHT FOR YOU?
created with QuizFarm.com You scored as Biology/Chemistry/Geology

You should strongly consider majoring (or minoring) in Biology, Chemistry, Geology, or related majors (e.g., Biochemistry, Environmental Science, Forestry, Fisheries and Wildlife, Genetics, Marine Biology, Zoology).

It is possible that the best major for you is your 2nd, 3rd, or even 5th listed category, so be sure to consider ALL majors in your OTHER high scoring categories (below). You may score high in a category you didn't think you would--it is possible that a great major for you is something you once dismissed as not for you. The right major for you will be something 1) you love and enjoy and 2) are really great at it.

Consider adding a minor or double majoring to make yourself standout and to combine your interests.

Biology/Chemistry/Geology

100%

English/Journalism/Comm

94%

Physics/Engineering/Computer

88%

Mathematics/Statistics

88%

French/Spanish/OtherLanguage

81%

Nursing/AthleticTraining/Health

81%

Psychology/Sociology

81%

PoliticalScience/Philosophy

75%

History/Anthropology/LiberalArts

75%

Religion/Theology

69%

Visual&PerformingArts

63%

Education/Counseling

50%

HR/BusinessManagement

50%

Accounting/Finance/Marketing

31%

my sched...

2008-06-01T02:50:00.000-07:00

HANDWRITING ANALYSIS

2008-04-29T22:08:00.000-07:00

this is spreading like wildfire on multiply, so here it goes... cpmments are very much welcome..

Welcome Blue Fidellaga, here is your handwriting analysis.

Blue is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes.

Blue will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Blue an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other.

When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Blue is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story.

Blue is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Blue doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

Blue will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Blue believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Blue will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

According to the inputted data, Blue has a stinger shape inside the oval of her a, d, or c. This might be hard to visualize, but if this little hooklike shape is present, then Blue has an unresolved "issue" with strong members of the opposite gender. An occasional appearance of this stroke could indicate a simple "loves a mental challenge" which can manifest in playful linguistic conversations and being attracted to a lover who isn't always available. However, if the stroke is severe, this means the individual has unresolved anger at the oppostive gender - which usually started with the person's childhood relationship with the opposite gender parent (Mom or Dad). If the writer is a woman she will be attracted to strong challenging men. If the writer is a man, he will find the woman who is "hard to get" the most attractive. In a nutshell, people with stingers in their writing tend to have challenges in their romantic relationships.

For more information about this "stinger" trait, visit this webpage. Remember, it is only negative if the traits occurs often and is quite pronounced. An occasional stinger can be no problem.

In reference to Blue's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Blue slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Blue can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Blue is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Blue basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

Blue is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

Blue has a temper. She uses this as a defense mechanism when she doesn't understand how to handle a situation. Temper is a hostile trait used to protect the ego. Temper can be a negative personality trait in the eyes of those around her.

Blue is selective when picking friends. She does not trust everyone. She has a select group of people that are truly close to her, usually two or three. She is careful when choosing her inner circle of friends.

Blue has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

10 facts about me... (tagged by rian)

2008-04-29T15:35:00.000-07:00

hmmm... uhoh... now i have to post 10 facts about me, thanks to arianne... here goes nothing..

FACTS:

1. blue can write backwards, like mirrored handwriting. i can, i swear.. hehe.. a scan of the mirror sample is attached, as well as a picture of me holding it.. :D

2. blue is a gm addict. gm means group messaging. i sms song lyrics to everyone in my phonebook at an average of 3 a per day, which is kind of annoying to others..

3. the reason for my codename is simple; it is my favorite color. (hehehehehe... )

4. i'm a huge, huge fan of matchbox twenty. as in huge. you could try asking me a question if you'd like.. :D

5. before i sleep, i have to "dust off" stuff from the bed, the pillows, and the blanket. then i must turn on the lampshade and the electric fan. i'll switch off the light, lock the door, rub stuff off my feet, put alcohol on my hands and cellphone and then i could sleep.

6. i'm basically a nocturnal person... not so active by day, hyperactive by night. recently though, i've been sleeping way earlier than normal. my sleep times now are between 10 and 12.. before, they were between 2 and 4...

7. coffee makes me sleepy. strange as it may sound, it is true. and i found out i'm not the only one, so i'm not abnormal!!!

8. rain makes me happy. i don't know why... it must have something to do with memories or something..

9. i am fascinated by the history channel....

10. i love helping out... even if it means i'll get scolded.

there you go... 10 things.. hihi...

tag: sarah, rayson, eric, rick, ler, jam, dark, jio, lei, ash

10 things that made me happy... (tagged by mario)

2008-04-29T15:02:00.000-07:00

Ten things that made me happy recently:

life (i'm happy enough to be alive.. hihi)
messages on my phone when i woke up (at least someone "remembered" me, even if they were all group messages.. hehe)
getting to go out this monday (i'm usually trapped in the house.. )
accomplishing what we had to do yesterday (i finally have the medical certificate i need to register on may 8)
i found something i lost underneath all the garbage in my room (i was forced to clean.. so when i found it.. hehe)
i know i could go out on friday (woo yeah... chance!)
my friends na batchmates ko (because they still treat me as their friend even if i haven't been quite as close to them... )
my friends na graduating na (because they treat me as a friend, plain and simple.. )
my teachers na friends ko na rin *i hope* (because they're there for me.. )
the clan (my sister and my brother... )

tag: jio, rian, kooey, grace, rick, rayson, marchie, lei, zeth, eric

damn the summer..

2008-04-03T06:48:00.000-07:00

summer's supposed to be a time to relax and have fun as opposed with school. i'm not sure if there's such a thing as too much relaxation; if there is such a thing, i'm right there. i really would appreciate having something to do. boredom is eating my like a rat eats cheese. sure, the pc and cellphone were enough for the first few days but.. phew. they just don't do it anymore.

maybe it's because i miss the mess of school too much or miss someone (ehem ehem) to enjoy the summer. to my classmates, i might seem like a person who hates school. then again, my classmates don't really know me that much.

i'm really looking forward to the screening for next year's school paper editors. i want to know who's next. teehee. also looking forward to that seminar from the 21st to the 25th. those days would probably be the last i'd spend in high school, specifically in a classroom. damn.

i'm NOT looking forward to my final course assignment in the university of the philippines. the nervousness i'd feel would only ruin the summer even more.

i'm looking for ways to enjoy the summer, more than the net and group messages. advice would be lovely. =D

a different shade...

-blue

a break... please... ::drools::

2008-03-22T19:36:00.000-07:00

i'm currently paying for all the slacking i've been doing this past week. ms penilla is probably still mad at me because i haven't given her the club's monthly reports and evaluation summary yet. i still have not done my page for the class scrapbook. there's still the matter of the investigatory project (which by the way is kinda crappy). i haven't been posting as frequently as i'd hoped either. hayy, how i wish summer would come sooner.

yes... slacker indeed.

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today is easter sunday, the day in which christians celebrate jesus' rising from the dead. we had quite a simple week, albeit a tiring one. however, in comparison with last year's celebration, it wasn't as meaningful as it was. i can not elaborate just yet.

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my conquest of the rubik's cube has become futile. the 1 minute mark is so near, yet so far. i got a new cube for renewed attempts at a break, but to no avail. this new cube is so fragile; it disassembles itself. i will conquer thee, 3 dimensional toy!!!

PS
good luck to undergrads who are going to take their finals this week...

a different shade...

-blue

where do i go from here? my journey to the purgatory called college

2008-03-15T17:01:00.000-07:00

one of the things a junior's mind would be going through by the end of the school year is college. third year grades are regarded highly as they are the part of the daunting screening process in good universities. as a junior, i didn't hold grades in such esteem so that wasn't a big deal for me... i still don't. ;)

the real questions juniors ask are, "which course should i take," or "which school should i apply for?" obviously, many students will aim for the top universities -- university of the philippines, de la salle university, ateneo de manila university, and university of santo tomas. so did i. with the plethora of courses offered by each university, a student would go nuts trying to decide which one to take. luckily, ms castro and ms dimalanta, guidance counselors of the school, gave me suggestions as to what course i should pursue.

ms dimalanta told me that molecular biology and biotechnology was challenging, but my interest and aptitude in science would get me through. i later found out that it was probably the toughest course there is and was only offered in the university of the philippines - diliman campus, the campus with the highest cut-off score. still, it was my first choice in the UPCAT application form... teehee. (the daredevil in me filled up the form).

ms castro told me to take up chemical engineering. at first, i only wanted it because it sounded nice and it was related to chemistry, my favorite branch of science. however, when i learned it had something to do with creating things to harness their potentials, etc., i became just a little bit more interested. the fact that it was a five year course was a negative for me; i'm not a fan of schoolwork. thanks to everyone's motivation, it became my second choice.

those courses were only good for my first campus choice in the UPCAT application form as they weren't offered in all four universities.

>tbc...

finally, it's finished!

2008-03-13T06:16:00.000-07:00

after more than a week of slightly boring days of staring at the screen, quite a number of ms. jenpen's checklists, rejected/unfinished articles, weird talks, and lousy poems, press work is over! now, all we have to wait for is the release of the product of our "slave labor", the Cor Unum. i can't wait to hear feedback.

people have asked about the release date. it was then that i felt that they still anticipated the moment they would get their hands on a copy. i do hope they appreciate it.

i wasn't able to attend my class' recollection; i went to the Cor Unum office and helped out instead. mr sarmiento (our CMO), said it was not a valid excuse even if i would go with another class because, "extracurricular activity lang yan, core activity ang binalewala mo." hmm, i'm not sure i even belong with my section anymore.

tomorrow would be my first official day at grad practice. i haven't attended a single one since practice started, though i could hear pretty much every song they sang; again, this was because of the paper. i did enjoy my stay at the office, and as far as i'm concerned, i wouldn't be missed.

i'm excited for the upcoming Clubfest, an event that showcases every organization's positive aspect. arianne, grace, and luzzy made a cool presentation for our org (haha, i haven't seen it yet but i do believe it is); can't wait.

hope i won't be so lost when i step back to reality a.k.a. grad practice.

a different shade...

-blue

graduation.... and the calvary that precedes it

2008-03-09T07:44:00.000-07:00

clearances signed, finals done, requirements completed (well... almost)... only the graduation left to look forward to..?

it's not that simple. before they get to enter what undergrads may call heaven, they must face the horrors of a super high speed 4th quarter -- the graduating batch only get a month's worth of time to finish the curricula for the nosebleed-inducing subjects such as physics, math, economics and finish the research paper for the oral defense.

last quarter blues:

1. a test a day keeps the student awake, therefore @.@ ...

2. (for pullout people)
student: ano nang nangyayari sa klase??
classmate: kakatapos lang namin sa thermodynamics, taxes, factor and remainder theorems, may ipapass na project sa tle, reaction paper sa cle... kaw nalang gumawa ng chapter 3, noh? magrereview pa kasi ako sa test bukas sa math at filipino. tas pinapasabi ni ms neri deadline na raw ng civac output sa friday... papasok ka na ba?

would someone bombarded with such a list want to enter the classroom after being pulled-out? quite a daunting task one must take in exchange of participation in other activities (more about pull-outs in an upcoming post). let alone trying to cram all the classroom discussions into one's head just to keep up.

3. hectic schedule due to activities in clubs, EOP, exposure trip, prom... although quite enjoyable, sometimes these days are better off spent in classrooms than having to endure a 300 kph discussion.

4. the research paper. need i say more?

5. clearance, clearance, clearance... although this has been done from first year, the weight of the requirements are just a teensy bit heavier.

6. the finals.

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after all that comes the boring practices... a whole day devoted to singing, eating, sometimes cleaning, listening to music or mr sarmiento's rants, etc. seniors even wished they had classes instead.

in all fairness to the undergrads, it has been said that junior year is the most daunting year of all. i don't dispute that; i quite agree. i could argue that the topics they have covered this year were much more advanced than what we had, yet there's always that thing about improvement. in reference to that quotation i've heard earlier today, "nothing is constant except change."

i am in no position to say that junior year is much more fun than senior year as i have spent little time in both junior and senior classes (another post again...). whichever it is, the memories one has made in this part of our journey called life are to be cherished long after the mortarboard has been tossed and the diploma displayed somewhere.

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the graduation rites does not signify the end of one's affiliation and responsibility to a school. rather, it signifies that one must move on to bigger dreams and tougher challenges to affirm that affiliation and continue to fulfill that responsibility of bringing honor to one's school. sure, it would be painful to part with the home and family one has gained in four years, to face the dread of never seeing those faces again. it's only painful if you let yourself be hurt. a drop of optimism never hurt anyone. one will not lose his high school and biological family through graduation if he keeps them in his heart and gets himself motivated to make them feel they have done a good job.

i do look forward to the 28th. i do look forward to the long ceremony. i look forward to turning over a new leaf and getting a chance to prove the impressions on me wrong.

a different shade...

-blue

THE NEW BLOG

2008-03-09T06:43:00.000-07:00

why the new blog? first, because a certain blogger said i should. second, because that would give me something to do. third, because i get to say whatever the hell i want to say (and keep to myself whatever "incriminating" stuff i must conceal).

i had 2 unsuccessful attempts at blogging. didn't quite get to update and all that. determined to change that now, because of the challenge i gave myself.

i'm going to need all the help i can get.

brace thyself...

a different shade...

-blue